Sick

Today I was dreaming of a life where I could afford to pay my monthly bills and food shop. This hasn't happened in recent memory and I'm losing it.
What's for dinner? A crumb and a pea.
There. I'm so full.

This distress reached a fever pitch this week due to an unfortunate incident I had at work. I reached into a recycle bin in the mail room to pull out a "used" piece of paper in order to scribble a note. I was tearing the sheet in two when I realized that I was holding a photocopy of a paycheck of a co-worker of mine who is technically "lower" than me in the office ranking.

I was immediately frozen in my tracks.
My jaw hung slack.
I couldn't help but notice.
She makes $10k more a year than I do.

I have felt sick ever since.